Waking Up

Thursday, October 4, 2012

October 2010
Crazy how fast time moves right along. Here we are smiling, breathing easy, not a care in the world.
Little did we know prematurity was about to rock our world to the core.
This photo, one of my favorites before our family of 5 existed, was taken this very same weekend 2 years ago. We were having the time of our lives with our big girls at Disney. I was 3 months pregnant with Alli and didn’t know that we were just weeks away from the first of many terminal pregnancy diagnoses.
Our world has since wobbled back and forth between slow motion and abrupt halts. After almost two years, it appears all five of us are just now waking up (too bad it’s right as we head into RSV season). It’s amazing how good it feels to feel like we’re in a safeplace (dare I say or even think that word, safe).
I’ve heard it said from others in the preemie community that true healing doesn’t begin until around the second year. I’ll be the first to admit, coming out of the dark is frightening, especially when I feel like we’ve been here for an eternity. We’re still a ways away from pure daylight, but it’s a start. There is light at the end of that tunnel.
That light of restoration and healing has begun. There are probably going to be set-backs, there are probably going to still be bad days (um, hello Tuesdays), but healing has to begin somewhere. And the fact that it's even beginning is unquestionably a good thing.

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