Happy 1st Birthday Alli Grace

Thursday, January 19, 2012

There are moments in life when you just can't find the words....when you know that simply no amount of time, no painting, no song, not even the most eloquent of authors could describe…..nothing could possibly, even remotely, come close to doing justice to what you feel in your soul. Today is one of those moments. Happy 1st Birthday Allison Grace.

On January 19, 2011 at 4:03 pm, the unexpected came--through cold winds, rain, and darkness life began. It wasn't how it was supposed to happen, but as it turns out, it was a perfectly orchestrated plan. I dare anyone to tell me there is no hope in their lives or there is not a God. All they need do is take one look at Alli's infectious smile and shining eyes! She has spent days and nights with her oxygen levels barely high enough for survival.  She's coded, been resuscitated, and ventilator dependent for 9 weeks. We've had all the worst case scenario speeches with doctors; speeches you could only imagine and ones you could not possibly fathom hearing about your child. Alli has stood on the edge of liver failure and kidney failure. She has walked through the valley of the shadow of death.  Doctors have literally scratched their heads and had to pull tricks out of their hats on this baby. We've been prepared for severe Cerebral Palsy or even worse, yet her MRI was "Beautiful" and "Unremarkable." God cradled this precious baby through every moment and she fought like the greatest of warriors to be here. There are absolutely things medicine can't explain and doctors have told us that Alli is one of them. That's grace. We’ve been told the worst of the worst yet all odds have been defied. It most certainly wasn’t chance. We have witnessed God’s Providence in our lives....
We call her Alli.

Today, Alli is happy, "Alli healthy," beautiful, and oh so happy! She is determined, strong willed, and still showing us her warrior spirit as she reaches for milestones we've been told she might not reach. She has, she is, and she’s going to reach them! She is clapping, rolling over, laughing, babbling, sitting, and ADORES her sisters. She is still on oxygen and will likely be for several more years. She is confined to home, except for visits to her array of doctor's appointments (pulmonologist, cardiologist, pediatrician, dietitian, gastroenterologist, and physiatrist...just to name a few). This is obviously to cut down on the risk of infections during cold and flu season, which would no doubt send us back to the hospital. She also receives physical therapy, occupational therapy, speech therapy, and early intervention services all in our home weekly (a.k.a. baby boot camp). She is still feeding tube (g-tube) dependent, but is working very hard with her baby foods. She just lacks endurance and coordination and maybe some other things we're missing, but since she tried to die on us after the surgery, by George, we're going to use that thing!! I have no doubts she'll met that head on as well!

Today we celebrate and give thanks for life, miracles, and every prayer prayed! I found this sweet poem on a card I received after Alli was born and it rings so true for our sweet birthday girl, actually for all of our girls.

"Just think....
Your DAUGHTER is here not by chance, but by God's choosing. His hand formed her and made her the person she is. He compares her to no one else-she is one of a kind. She will lack nothing that HIS grace can't give her. He has allowed her to be here at this time in history to fulfill His special purpose for this generation."

-Roy Lessin-

   To view Alli's 1st Birthday
video, click on her picture below.


  1. I cannot believe this sweet baby is ONE! Oh my goodness! What a journey this has been and yet you are still so positive, displaying the epitome of God's character dear Jackie. I'm so grateful you shared this blog with us. Baby Alli has such a sweet laugh and girl she has juicy cheeks! Who would have thought she'd have juicy cheeks already!?! xoxo-Raysha

    1. Raysha! Thank you for your sweet, sweet comments! I always prayed that I would walk out this journey according to His will and be able to show the armour of God even during the darkest moments of a parents life! And yes, Alli cat has some super juicy cheeks! Hugs!

  2. Oh, Jackie! I cannot believe what y'all have been through and to make it to this point truly is indescribable! I have wished so many times that I could just give you a big hug. Thank you for sharing the inspiration that is Alli! Wishing her a very special birthday and many, many more!

    1. Thank you Jessica! It is indeed indescribable! I stay in awe EVERY single day!! Love to you and your precious, beautiful family!!


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